After much hesitation. i decided to write this post.

To Wanxin,

Like usual, was reading your blog. Surprisingly , saw my name on your blog once again :)

To be frank, everytime i read your blog. i'm very reluctant to continue reading. cus i dont know if what i will be reading next is going to hurt me again or what. But time and again, i read and read. Alot of my friends are all asking me why i wanna go and read when i know it's going to hurt because it will remind me of what he did.

Now that everything has come to an end, i've already put everything now. In a right mind to face what i've been through and think it over. Maybe you're right. He really treats me very nice. I ever felt so blissed when i was with him when I DONT KNOW ANYTHING BEHIND. I was thinking maybe this guy is the right one. but no, ever since i know everything. i know i was deceived . probably just hiding some of the things regarding you. but maybe i should say fortunately , i can put down what i've been through with him these months and move on. Probably because i've been through too much in my relationships. got used to guys like that, expecting guys like that. so i've always been 'protecting' myself in that sense though i still get hurt but at least i got myself out of it.

And whether he wants to protect me and love me all these while, i dont really care already. because what he had done is not what i can accept and forgive. maybe just friends is the furthest i can give. Seeing you loving him so much, i really lost for words. i don't know whether i should tell you go for it or just give up. and yes, i definitely understand. it's not easy to give up. so i will just say,

Don't press yourself to forget, because it isnt going to work. let it easy and you'll feel better gradually and forget over time.

STAY STRONG AND MOVE ON.