before i went out. my hair was ready to go out also. spent like half an hour curling . but all efforts down the drain .

Dropped by stephy's birthday party at timbre. i had to walk a very long distance cus ystd there's ndp rehearsal or what. which made all roads there blocked and bus couldnt drive in. i walked like duno how fast. and worst thing is i dunno my way there. i just ask people around. saw one sec school friend. he also dunno. until i asked this pretty lady , who guided me the way. then finally saw them.

went to tdc with a group of old friends. SY, Sy's BF, KL,JH , ML and GC. haha . friends i know long time ago. hehes. it was fun ! not awkward which i didnt really expect cus i was thinking it would be abit awkward with this combination. but no . all are so friendly ! :))

a few of them from hpib

was at tdc for the past like four days ? just like before. one with py. met her after her work that day. the other day was there with ahyi , liying and my cousin. then my brother , corliss, xiong, helen , mq and eddie came down to celebrate corliss's bd. mq made the cake and it's damn nice. cheesecake ! ~ then after that went home straight like surprisingly. my brother went to h20 after that. then when he came home, he knocked on my door to check if i was really back. and he say wah, good good. you at home already. hahas. cus i was out everyday till midnight that kind.

my sister in law ! :)

After much hesitation. i decided to write this post.

To Wanxin,

Like usual, was reading your blog. Surprisingly , saw my name on your blog once again :)

To be frank, everytime i read your blog. i'm very reluctant to continue reading. cus i dont know if what i will be reading next is going to hurt me again or what. But time and again, i read and read. Alot of my friends are all asking me why i wanna go and read when i know it's going to hurt because it will remind me of what he did.

Now that everything has come to an end, i've already put everything now. In a right mind to face what i've been through and think it over. Maybe you're right. He really treats me very nice. I ever felt so blissed when i was with him when I DONT KNOW ANYTHING BEHIND. I was thinking maybe this guy is the right one. but no, ever since i know everything. i know i was deceived . probably just hiding some of the things regarding you. but maybe i should say fortunately , i can put down what i've been through with him these months and move on. Probably because i've been through too much in my relationships. got used to guys like that, expecting guys like that. so i've always been 'protecting' myself in that sense though i still get hurt but at least i got myself out of it.

And whether he wants to protect me and love me all these while, i dont really care already. because what he had done is not what i can accept and forgive. maybe just friends is the furthest i can give. Seeing you loving him so much, i really lost for words. i don't know whether i should tell you go for it or just give up. and yes, i definitely understand. it's not easy to give up. so i will just say,

Don't press yourself to forget, because it isnt going to work. let it easy and you'll feel better gradually and forget over time.

STAY STRONG AND MOVE ON.

i think i told every of my friends that i went neverland with my house black shorts and slippers. and once again, i'm writing on blog. because it was unplanned . i went there like shit. but at least with a nice top . so i should say half-dressed ?

lol. yea . and i was high that night. and by the way, it's on a weekday. actually we planned to eat at golden mile. thai food or something. justin,mario,willie and me. then they drove to my place to pick us up. then drove to orchard. ended up in a pub but we let within half an hour. then just head off to neverland to watch world cup since we're already at orchard. then drank. omg. luckily i wore a black shorts if it was other colours , it's damn obvious i came from home or something. and also it was dark. haha. drank with the hot girls there.

thai girls really hot larrrr. there's one hot guy also. but communication error . haha. i dun understand what he says and we only bottoms up. that's all. hahas. but alot of thai guys players lar. so yea. i reached home damn late . like 4 , 5 plus. woke up at 8 for school. and yes this is really crazy. damn tired. my face looking damn bad , not in good state. and yea that was for the day before ystd.

ystd went to meet gf brenda. tdc to slack and waste time . then head off to mario's house to watch soccer. then justin sent me home. but ystd something shitty happened. shant elaborate since everything is put aside and okay now.

Later i going office meet my hpib ex colleagues to have lunch ! how good is that! and probably see my kim kim and wanni there !!! :))

this was taken before going to neverland that night.





he's working and i dragged him to take photo. he totally no mood. lols

had a long long really long weekend. whereby i had only few hours of sleep each day. but i was playing all the way larrrr. world cup. watching with justin and friends over at mario house.

Friday mahjong, sat sunday mario house.

ystd monday, went to school and attended BY2's concert. wasnt really high. just went there to see see. then headed to meet justin.

hugo :)

Third day of the publicizing the pageant. At fareast this time ! The event was kinda more grand than the one at hougang cus of the location probably. orchard somemore on a weekend surely more crowded. but somehow they dressed more grand ystd. all with gowns. so yea. of course this time round. my dear girl's different cliques all came down to support her.

Her poly clique, secondary school, family, boyfriend's family, and of course US (brenda,eralin,felicia, jiang he and me! :)

then went to tdc to slack at around 10pm. before that had dinner after the thing end. then shopped around. took neoprint. omg this ah. hahas. secondary school girl's stuff. now we are turning 20 and still doing this. but it's kinda sweet to have girlfriends coming up with ideas like this suddenly <3 love them all. saw boon leong over at cine. lol. he damn funny like before. call him across from the escalator. he was at the other end . but he thought is some speaker playing music. it took him damn long to realise it was us . then walked over and explained. damn joker. lol. then after that saw amanda ! all from bendemeer man. lols.

cab down to tdc till around 130am. then went over to mario's house to meet Justin and friends to watch world cup. thankfully there's food cus i was soooosooooo hungry in the middle of the night. and the nasi briyani was nice ah. so thanks mario :) then justin sent me and willie home at around 5 plus 6. and now here i'm awake at 430pm blogging about ystd ! :)

brenda & me


brenda, me , jh


fel, eralin, angela, me, brenda


jh, fel , eralin, angela, brenda. me

i need to rant it all out man. i hesitated and now i decided to blog about it.

damn pissed. early in the morning . screwed morning to be exact. some shit to clear left by an idiot. omg man. he left me with a bad night and now i have to clear some misunderstanding FOR HIM AGAIN ! this is crazy man. this is torturing ok. what the fuck man. really.

dont always think you're so right to say you have nothing wrong, you're so pathetic to be left alone. you're so innocent that you can blame it on others after all these happened. and bla bla bla. ok. you're not only hurting yourself but you got three people to be into this shit ok. can you please please please dont do anything more childish already. i'm already disgusted by your doings eh. you know ? omg. speaking of this reminds me of all the words you said last night ! this is totally not ok. talk to me about how much you love me and do the other thing on another hand ? omg. you suck. can we just end things nicely ? all the while i never had this word running in my mind to describe us. but now , after all i see , what you do, 'impossible' is the word ok. really. i had enough of you !

enough of ranting . i'm super hungry now. will continue with this post later !

oh yes a lil bit abit last night. went to meet justin for dinner. it's been so long since we eat together. i mean as in like after so much things happen. we finally met for dinner. met hugo also ! the dog damn cute. didnt play with him for long cus just drop by to get the car key. short night. but at least nothing bad happened until another person screw it. but still, thanks J :)

WAS SUPER BORED TODAY !

reached school late ! fypj sucks. i havent see my teacher since the very first week. and now's week 3. omg. when he's here, i'm not here. when i'm here, he wil be either in lectures/mc/or dunno busy with what. ended school at 6. then walked to mrt together with friends. actually wanted to go out with jon. but a bit weird ah. both of us. so we headed home first. but i ended going to bugis. lols . bought nail polish, accessories,etc. Met one of my primary school friend , chatted awhile then went home.

Lil' pictures.



light too bright. lols. no lar. actually i was paiseh. so i gave a spastic look.


dunno what he doing with the cigar also.

Day 2 ;) went to hougang point again :) my girl looks so pretty today. then tdc to slack. 11 plus then go home already ;) that's about ystd :)



a day i never expect ;)

woah i tell you this baby girl. she is damnnnnnnnnn cute ok.


brenda & me <3